What I thought about during church today

The Bible glosses over many parts of the story of the universe. I can't blame the author because he set out on a journey, the weight of which Tolkien would crumple underneath. When a book begins at the ultimate beginning, the details will be slipshod, few and far between, and controversial. I question the author's choice to include so many specific guidelines for life in such detail apparently at the expense of indulging the reader in the exploits of pubescent Jesus. We have almost no stories of the rebel Jesus as he comes into his own as a man. Jesus' morality is unquestionable as his source of knowledge comes direct from the top, but how did Jesus handle those all too human problems of late childhood? Did the lord suffer from the lonely embarrassment of nocturnal emissions? It must be assumed that neither Mary nor Joseph told Jesus to watch out for the corrupting thoughts of young men that turn innocence to doubts and curiosity into regrets. No one would expect Jesus to succumb to anything in the sordid realm of dewy sexuality so the great Teacher was without a sex-ed teacher.

If the assumption is made that Jesus did have the unfortunate circumstantial disadvantages of puberty foisted upon him by his human half, how could the teenage savior have survived? I believe that there were many private shouts of the Lord's dying words in the prison cot on which Jesus slept in his adolescence. God's celebrity no doubt got in the way of his ability to care for his own holy and spirit, but if there was a time when a father needed to support his child it was then. 

Perhaps God doubted himself. His ability to empathize with his boy could not come from personal experience. Jesus was in the unfortunate position of not having a mentor for his human impulses and an overbearing dictator of a mentor for his holy obligations.

Morality always comes in demands and never as a trend. Jesus was not an emotional man, contrary to what his Hollywood Superstar counterpart would have us believe. The ability to stand trial before God for one's sins can never deter one from sinning, as fear tactics cannot lead to a healthy denial but rather a puritanical duality manifested in fits of emotion. God may have successfully fixed the human problem of sinning for a time with the shock and terror campaign, but when he saw the human race slipping and decided to send his little boy down to teach us all the way of rectitude he couldn't have foreseen the result. The message of forgiveness has allowed us to doubt God's power. A sinner cannot learn from a lack of consequences and the only one who must feel those consequences is the sinner himself. Where forgiveness is a given, sin will follow. Does the murderer forgive himself immediately as God claims to do? No man can live with sin on his conscience unless he has rationalized the sin down to a bastardized category of veniality. Morality is defined within. Once the wicked beast of sin is petted and coddled it will eat away at that morality like smoke in the lungs.