My New Year's resolution is to chill the fuck out. Life comes easy to me and it should considering my living situation: parents still together, great high school, middle class economic security/false hope. I make life harder for myself by trying too hard. There is a classic comparison of life to a river that applies as well to my life as anyone else's. The problems in my life are caused when I try to swim with the river faster than the river flows. This leads to thrashing about unproductively in the stream. I need to learn how to float and kick to keep myself comfortably afloat.
My teachers have called me precocious in the past and that assessment is flawed. I am eager, but not just to ask questions and to know more, but to have things happening. Action movies are exciting because they imply a different universe in which things are always happening. My love for film has made it all too easy for me to compare my life to a film and from this I try to build on every situation. If jokes are being made I want to make life a comedy and keep the laughs rolling even louder than the last laugh. Every emotion is heightened when I'm committed to being active in any situation. I need to find the middle ground between this overactive emotion and the resigned absentee existence.
No Minutemen quote today...
School is out and now I'm off to a productive break of sitting directly on my ass. Happy caroling
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