Thinking about the afterlife is initially the most horrifying and sad thing that a human can do. Our primal fears of the unknown that can't be rationalized in any way are presented to us in death. I try to get past this by thinking optimistically about death. We know so little that there are seemingly infinite possibilities for the infinite. The probable explanation of nothingness can be seen as a good thing in that it is motivation to live life to the fullest. But boy do I hope there is a heaven like in the Bible. I don't believe it but it would sure be swell. It makes no fucking sense, but the absurd is a simple explanation for the unexplainable. I guess what I really hope is freedom from the burden of only living once. I am scared that I will be dissatisfied with myself for the life I have lived. Reincarnation would be excellent even if there is no release from the world because I would still get to live life. Heavenly perfection is the highest that I can hope for. If it exists I don't have to worry about praying to get in because everyone gets in. God can not exist with Satan in the same universe. Good either triumphs Evil or vice-versa. If there are supreme beings then there is only one and it is either Good or Evil.
Here's what heaven is like if it exists: No one cares about anything. Everyone is free from everything we perceive as humans. We can't be humans in heaven because the human form is dispensable. The soul enters eternity and becomes a perfect member of the infinite in the universe. I can't imagine what this is like, but it must be perceived as something to my soul because it is reality. This isn't boring because time causes boredom and time does not exist. This perfection, this completeness, is what God has and is. There is nothing like this in the physical world.
Of course none of this matters because we definitely go nowhere when we die. Our minds, which are so lauded for their ability to reason everything out, are not so special. We simply are able to understand exactly what is placed in front of us. If there is no proof to a statement then the statement does not exist. What is the human brain aside from a highly advanced computer? Emotions can be explained in the context of evolution, desire to exist, and fear of loss of existence. The idea that humans are special and have a place in the universe above that of a dung beetle is the pure invention of the human mind which is not something outside of the physical world. Minds can change; brains can be crushed like any physical object. Our incredible tools of simple logic are not exempt from the harsh realities of the physical world, the finite. Evolution may end at humans, but if it doesn't thought processes can not ever transcend the physical world. The spiritual realm is not for humans to know in this state. Nirvana is nothing more than acceptance and a sense of place. I hope to find it someday, but I doubt it will make me any more alive once my body decays than a frantic, confused man, lost in the world. Heaven would be nice, and I can't definitively deny it, but I will not waste any time working towards it in any way outside of metaphor.
No comments:
Post a Comment